Divine Intervention at
13 Healing Moons of the
Great Turtle Mystery School

By Marianne Spider Star Weaver Ober & Stephanie Rainbow Lightning Elk Wadell

My teacher, Stephanie Rainbow Lightning Elk, is a hands-on sexual healer. She is also the Guide and Leadership of 13 Healing Moons of the Great Turtle Mystery School. Her loving heart and extraordinary shadow-busting abilities have shown me the tremendous power of sexual catalyzing energy, in both its stagnant and free-flowing forms. Working with that energy engages all aspects of self – emotional, physical, mental, spiritual, and sexual. The uninhibited flow of sexual life force creates endless possibilities. Illumination happens. Manifestation occurs. Things happen faster. It could even be called Magick.

Today, there are few ways for young people and adults to freely express and own their sexuality. The GTMS gave me such an opportunity. It provided me with an authentic Rite of Passage. That is, a ceremony marking a transition from one phase of life to another. With the exception of a few religious traditions, such ceremonies are not part of our current culture. The GTMS provided a reframe of my 0-13 years of life, acknowledging my talents, gifts, and abilities and enabling me to actualize my Sacred Dream.

I experienced many mirrors of magick and self-reflection within the GTMS, a circle of conscious community.

During 13 Healing Moons, we were assigned individual Moondances. That is, our teachers tuned into what our Higher Selves desired for us to step out of our self-limiting patterns and behaviors into a higher vibration of self-actualization. One of my fellow students was a fulltime ob/gyn doctor and mother of three young children. The dynamics in her marriage were less than ideal – no time for each other, a nearly non-existent sex life. And absolutely no time for herself. The stagnation of her sexual life force was physically evident by the added weight her body was carrying. She not only looked heavy, her energy felt heavy. She was to set aside an hour a week for herself. Whatever she did during that hour was up to her – with one stipulation. She had to bring herself to orgasm. This was no small feat. She could not remember the last time she had an orgasm. A couple moons later, she reported back to us. As her waters flowed from her eyes and heart, she shared that somehow she had managed to do it. She made space for herself. She orgasmed! She had reacquainted herself with the sacredness of her waters – with her life force energy. I remember feeling the shift in her energy body. There was greater buoyancy within her physical and energetic bodies. It felt magickal. An unexpected delight.

Another classmate was an incredibly successful businesswoman with her own design firm. Despite her success, there were a few unsettled business contracts. The money just wasn't coming through. Sleak and sexy, this nearly-fundamental Christian reluctantly revealed she was having an affair with a married man – for years. This was tearing her up. It was obvious she wanted to be living in integrity. During her journey through the GTMS, she came into right relationship with her sexual energy. She ended the affair. The unsettled business contracts came through, bringing in nearly $100,000. Magick? Divine intervention? The synchronicity did not go unnoticed.

And then there's me. The GTMS gave me many profound healing experiences. Pleaidian lightwork/energy clearings, shamanic journeying and ceremony, past life reframes, kundalini yoga. Alignment with the natural world, connections with my animal totems. Yet, my biggest revelations and healing came through my Rite of Passage. Through understanding and owning the sacredness around my sexuality, I ceremonially stepped from childhood into adulthood. A Touch Healing ceremony shifted my awareness and approach to intimacy and provided a Rite of Passage into sacred sexuality. With my partners, a gay man and straight woman, I danced a Medicine Wheel of sexual healing. Synchronizing our breath brought us into present time. Eye gazing connected us to the depths of our being. We spoke our fears, our desires. We stated our boundaries, while encouraging each other to stretch out of our comfort zones. We touched. We giggled. We orgasmed. The Magickal child within me delighted in the wonder and spontaneity of playful and sensual touch. This profound experience gave me confidence with my sexual and sensual choices. Hallelujah!

Through my studies and healing journey with Rainbow Lightning Elk and the GTMS, I sometimes wonder how sexual healing will be integrated into my life and work. Will I become a sexual healer? In freeing myself from sexual limitations and taboos, and gaining confidence in my clairvoyant healing abilities, I learned how to use my catalyst energy in integrity to create magick with the 4 worlds of Grandmother Earth (plants, animals, minerals, humans). My Rite of Passage also gave me ownership of my strengths as Spider Star Weaver, my Spirit Name. How would my life be if I had this ceremony at puberty? To my teachers and Ancestors who paved the way for all of us to actualize our Highest Potential, I am blessed. I am grateful. Aho.